December 20 – Beyond Avoidance – What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?) (Author: Jake Nickell)
This prompt has left me angry. Furious. After reading it I ignored it for hours, hoping I’d pass beyond it and be able to answer it in the ‘oh what a wonderful journey‘ spirit it was written. *shakes head* No prizes if you guess my mood hasn’t improved.
Is there something I should have done? Hell yes! I should have listened to that blasted inner voice that told me things weren’t as they appeared and walked away from his ass a long time ago! Damn. Said it. I didn’t want to. I’ll probably spend days wondering if I should delete this. Huh?! A part of me STILL wants to bloody believe that he loved me. Oh fuck. How insane is that? Well, wishes don’t make it real. I’ll get used to that in time. It hurts right now, but I’ll get used to it.