So, it’s time to change my about page again.
So much changes in a single moment. A moment of realisation. A moment of truth. So many changes.
Where does that moment leave me? Where do I go from here? At least I know I will survive. I’ve always survived. It’s just… I want more than just survival. I want more than stepping through the day and existing. I wanted more than just survival two years ago when I again popped my head out from my self-imposed isolation to see what is out here in the world. I fell in love. I wasn’t looking for love. Honestly, I wasn’t ready for love, but it was there. Smooth words and glimpses of a future. The promise of something better. The promise of what I thought I’d always wanted… to love and be loved in return. I don’t know what I want now. Now that the fairy tale is over.
“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
— Marilyn Monroe
Now that has the perfect blend of pessimism and optimism for how I feel. One day at a time. That’s all I can do.