Oh Hunters, how I miss thee…

Hunters and Collectors that is. I can’t remember if I ever saw them live. It’s in my mind that I did, but I can’t remember more than a shadow of a memory, so not certain if I actually did. Either way, one of my favourite bands from back then.

Hunters and Collectors – Throw your arms around me.

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That wistful feeling

It’s a quiet evening. Quiet now that younger nephew is preparing for bed. My elder nephew is plugged into his iPod, happily lost in some old, old heavy metal band. Pokemon dvd has finally been turned off and my whole body almost quivered with my need to sigh in relief. I thought younger nephew’s obsession with Thomas the Tank Engine a few years ago would be the end of me. Or maybe that was Teletubbies?

I sigh softly, wistfully remembering the past. Videos of Thomas played over and over and over again when my son went through his own Thomas obsession as a toddler. I used to wonder… why oh why would someone make us sit through the theme music multiple times? Those videos felt like a never-ending loop of theme music to me.

This wistful feeling continues from the weekend, from spending time with my friends, in the city I grew up in. Today it’s family. I walk back into the room and almost feel like an intruder in this time my brother spends with his sons.

I walk in and I question why I’m here and who am I to be a part of this? Choices from the past lay heavily on me tonight, reminding me who I chose to be.

Oh.

That’s the point… it’s “who I chose to be” and not who I’ve chosen to become now.

I smile as my brother decides on a new song to learn on the guitar… People are Strange. I love the Echo and the Bunnymen version. Younger nephew walks in, ready for bed. Everyone laughs as my brother sets aside his guitar and I call out… No, no, no, that song will be in my head all night now!

I can hear the low murmur as my brother reads to younger nephew. Elder nephew picks up the guitar and begins to play.

Right now, I’m here with family and I belong… and there’s no better feeling in the world than that.

Yep, that song wouldn’t leave my head… enjoy some People are Strange…

And in Sydney

*smiles* In Sydney and the laptop started up. I always wonder when I shut it down if it’s for the last time. My tech guys, who are no longer there, had said they didn’t want to repair anything else on it. As it is, it barely charges, so is constantly on power and has a separate little monitor attached since the screen died a year ago. She’s been hanging on for years now 😀

I’m exhausted. I drove until 3am, tried to sleep, gave it up around 6am and finished the drive. I love long drives. I always feel free, even if I do have somewhere to be. My friend N in country Victoria spent a good hour today trying to convince me to drive there, since I’m kind of half way there now anyway. Tempting, but I’m looking forward to this time with my brother. He and his ex-wife spent a few hours last night trying to remember the last time I’d been to Sydney for a ‘holiday’. For the last five years, I was here for events or just passing through. Nice to stop awhile this time. My older nephew told me I’m mad wanting to come to Sydney to do… touristy stuff! Teenagers, hahaha.

I logged on today and was moved to tears from the support in comments, emails and even twitter mails. It isn’t that I’d put out of my mind what I’d posted and scheduled before I left. It’s… I was on the road and I was free. Quick someone find a career where I can drive around randomly long distance… in a car not a truck. I used to hate driving trucks. No, not big trucks, little trucks, the type you drive on a normal licence. Part of my last job had me driving the little company truck to exhibitions. I hated that truck! Fully loaded… 80km/hr top speed, down hill with the wind behind me. Not many places on the highway that gave me that… loooong, slooooow, trips. I’m far too impatient by nature for that.

Anyway, this song is perfect for how I’m feeling *smiles*

Gyroscope – Baby, I’m Gettin’ Better

No turning back…

It’s been a crazy few days, topping off a crazy couple of weeks, icing on the last few crazy months. But I’ve enjoyed my weekend and after a day of self spoiling I’m back on an even keel again.

Anyway, I just heard this Sarah Blasko song on the radio coming home and now I’m having trouble getting it out of my head! One thing I can turn back… the date this shows as published 😛

Enjoy…

The award post next. No more excuses *blush*

Making no sense

I seem to have a habit of listening to old Cold Chisel (Jimmy Barnes) lately. Then I go through this OMG! 80s Classics! mood thingy, which can be fun. Anyway… last time this song stuck with me. Enjoy…

Watching the video I couldn’t help thinking about detail. Really, details can make no sense if we don’t see it as part of the larger whole. Taken out of context things are what we want them to be, or what we think they should be. And that sure doesn’t mean we’re right. Nope. I’ll leave it there for another post. There’s a reason I’m thinking that way. There always is 😀

… and for those wondering, that’s a Pavlova at the end of the clip. Pavlova = Yummy. Except once someone’s shoe has been through it 😛

Case closed

I love this version of this song.

Yeah, I’m in a blue dump tonight.

“If I was in a relationship with *** it would say so on my profile. I do not specify that I was single because the tab to do this was “Featured People” and I’ve never looked at it until now because quite frankly, who in my life is close enough to me to be special?”

I wasn’t special. Two years and he was always single on his profile. Case closed. I don’t need to read or see anything else.

Let me have my blue mood tonight. I need to feel the pain so I can feel something else later. It’ll pass.